All through Jesus

I have realized that no matter what I do, No matter who I help, No matter what organization I am involved in, that none of it matters if I can't lead my family and those closest in my life to God.

That when I am angry, upset or have any negative feelings toward them that it could be used against me. They could say, "Well that's not how a Christian acts" Or " You can't say that it's not Christian." This is true.
That I am a Christian. I am a follower of Christ. That when I am ridiculed or made fun of, that I am to turn the other cheek. That when I am talked about behind my back, or made in to a conspiracy to take down, I am to let it happen.

I am to be Christ like at all times.

Do not be confused this with being a pushover. I will not let you kill me.
But I will turn the other cheek.
I will forgive 7o times 7. I pray that I am worthy of this call. That I will use these struggles not to say, "OH LOOK AT ME, I am some how better than someone." NO. BUT- to come into a deeper relationship with my God. I know that at most times I am NOT worthy of saying I am a Christian. I fail God everyday. In my words, in my deeds. In what I have done and what I have failed to do.
But with each fall, I GET UP.
AND UP.
AND UP.

I pray that you will get up with me too. Every time. We are nothing without our creator. We are nothing without his Love and Forgiveness.

I pray to forget myself, and my desires to be lifted up in this world.

I just want to be faithful.

I am sorry if somehow I have offended you or made you think less of me. I just want to be faithful.

To be a Proverbs 31 wife.